Too smooth a life

I'm gonna do a big thing, after I did my maths and discovered how difficult my goal would be. I'm gonna be truly do it, and hope it's not just a 3 minute thing.

A simple list of 3 minutes I've done:
Tried to learn violin
Tried to learn piano
Tried to learn guitar
Tried to learn Japanese
Tried to learn Korean
Tried to learn Cantonese
Tried to Achieve gold for IPPT
Tried to Exercise
Tried to help with family business

There's way more, but those are the recent ones I can justify and recall.

Things I followed Through and why?:
Doing Sunshine cause I feel I can learn things and break through my fear for speaking to not familiar people
Playing Games because it's fun
Reading self-improvement books because I understand how important it is to read them!


I can barely recall those I've followed through.

Probably the most difficult of them all would be, doing sunshine.
I've procrastinated, sweet-talked myself, revitalised myself, hated myself, loved myself and all sorts of emotions, and despite not performing, I'm still with it today, and It's going to be a big thing I've planned. I'm going to do it.

I have too many 3 minutes stuff perhaps due to my highly volatile personality, and I want to learn so much. As they put it in another way, too many girls and too little time, for me, too many issues and too little time.

Aside from this issues, I've always seen myself as super lucky, having a good life less of turbulence. That may not be entirely true. I've been bullied, labeled not manly, having no say, despised myself, approached by gays, done certain acts and inconsiderate stuff, all of which could be labeled as not smooth. Over time, I look back and I see, it's all well, but in reality, It's not. It could have been better, and because of this, I regard myself and positive generally, not quite the negative when I labeled myself previously. I still do think that my life is too good, too perfect for me to do things beyond my comfort zone, for which I loathe.