Working relationships.

Working relationships.

Recently, I had 2 issues which dealt me quite a big blow. There was this single friend whom I assumed to be a rather close friend behaved rather coldly, based on my judgement then. Not wanting to unfairly judge him, I approached him with some conversations which of I got reluctant answers.

The other incident was due to a misunderstanding and was less complicated. Basically, both of us thought we were right and a reluctant parting of argument occurred. It resolved nothing.

For the latter incident, It was partially resolved by ignoring it and continuing on our work. Nothing was actually trashed out. It made me feel insufficient has been done.

If I could decide, which I could have(due to egos.), I would want to find out if it was merely an isolated event or totally due to me. From the second, I would want to come to a understanding of our POVs and reach a resolve.

Sadly, these may never be done. It has not been the first relationship conflict I've experienced and I totally hate it.

I come to realise, to maintain working relationships, we hide our feelings, bottle them up and pretend that nothing's wrong.

I was thinking, that if I could just let my ego down, I would gain something. I confronted the first with my thoughts and like usual, nothing came out of it.

What it merely did was to let the opposite side know that I am aware. I hate confrontations like many do but I did it. I know that by endearing this behaviour, none of us is going to benefit and would bring me to his level. Additionally, I would never have learn new things like humility.

If I have a choice, I would avoid human relationships, but the fact is, I have no choice. I know what it means to work alone and I know I cannot. Neither is most productive but however working together has more ups and downs compared to that working alone boring monotony.

I now one thing for sure and that is that I've conquer my feeling of being too emotional. I normally tend to be too involved and defensive, but I made myself thinking logically. I did what I needed to do. Although I may not have achieved what I wished, that was to restore our relationships to a new level, I did what I had to do and I judge it as a success.